Life and Death

This morning was kind of strange for me.  I found myself meeting with a friend in the morning to talk about life.  During our talk, I found myself thinking through the things that drive me - that wake me up in the morning.  I thought about meaning and purpose in life and what gives that to me.  I thought about life.
Next, I traveled up the road to a funeral home.  I was the speaker for the funeral of someone I had never met, but who's life certainly touched those around her.  I always struggle at funeral homes and funerals in general.  They are a constant reminder of death.  No matter how long I have here, my life is still limited.

Driving home from the funeral, I found myself talking to God.  I thought about how my life has been different since I decided to walk with Him.  I talked to Him about the difference He's made in my life...and I thanked Him.  I also thought about what a difference it will make in the next life - that death no longer has any power over me.  I thanked Him for that, too.  I'm starting to understand just a little more about what Paul was thinking when he wrote the following words.

For to me, living means living for Christ, and dying is even better. But if I live, I can do more fruitful work for Christ. So I really don't know which is better. I'm torn between two desires: I long to go and be with Christ, which would be far better for me. But for your sakes, it is better that I continue to live. Knowing this, I am convinced that I will remain alive so I can continue to help all of you grow and experience the joy of your faith. (Philippians 1:21-25 NLT)

I don't think I have to offer as much as Paul did, but I certainly understand the sentiment.  Today, I get to live for Christ.  Some day,  I will enjoy seeing Him face to face.